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Why is it every time I give my all, and push my boundaries beyond what they were in an attempt to better myself, the prize goes to someone else?  Why did I refuse to adhere to knowledge of this effect before trying to build a new relationship, hoping it would somehow come out differently?  It sure didn't.  I was right again.  Call me negative if you want, but to me it is a recurring reality.  Love is fucked.  Marriage is fucked.  Until people learn the difference and make the wiser choice, I will have no part of the charade that people call marriage.  And since marriage seems to only be for those who inspire infatuation anyway, it seems it will also have nothing to do with me.

As he lied on his bed during his final breaths of life, my Dad expressed to my Mom the importance of the vow he took for her, "Until death do us part."  They honored that, both Mom and Dad, for better or worse, as they had promised.  Such promises seem to not matter to anyone anymore in this day and age.  I'm sorry, Dad. I had so hoped to let you see a departing image of all THREE of your children happily involved in that promise, but somehow it continues to elude me.

Where it all went wrong I have yet to figure out.  I'm so sorry Dad.  Please rest in peace anyway knowing you tried.  And also please know that I tried but yet again it yielded the same predictable results.  I put myself through hard spots no one else would have even considered, all pinned to the hopes that this time i would get what I was working for.  I suppose I should have remembered that insanity is doing the same thing and expecting different results.  Am I bitter?  Probably, but what good is sweetness anyway?  That just makes you try to pretend that you're O.K. with the relationship you worked so hard to try and build being rewarded to someone else who just happened to be prettier.  Fuck love.  Fuck sweetness.  Fuck the whole world.

As much as I wish I could believe it won't always be this way, reality repeatedly proves otherwise to me.  But hey, kudos to those who tricked me into "giving it one more shot."  You really had me going there!  Now enjoy your laugh while I continue to shed my tears at the expense of your amusement.

NEVER AGAINCrying Depressed
  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Ribbon of Darkness by Marty Robbins
  • Watching: the whole world go to hell
  • Drinking: Dr. Pepper

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Dave Urbik
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Favourite style of art: Anaglyphic 3D
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: None yet
Shell of choice: Conch
Skin of choice: my own
Favourite cartoon character: Popeye
Personal Quote: We can't legislate our way to immortality. Bans cause social cancer.
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Hello. Do you still playing Car Town?
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Thanks for the favs! :D
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Happy Birthday !! :clap:
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Happy Birthday! :happybounce: :iconcakeplz:
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thanks for the :+fav: :)
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Thanks!
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thanks for the :+fav: :horns:
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SliderGirl Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the VW Bug drawing fav! Anyway, I also born in july! :D
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Thanks for the fav! :happybounce:
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thanks for the :+fav: :iconheadbanglaplz:
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Thanks for the fav! :aww:
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Thank you so much for the :+fav:s :3
The support is very much appreciated, I'm glad you like my artwork!Anyway, I'd like to invite you to come and have a look at my gallery some more too.
My interests are pretty wide so I sure hope you find something to your likings!
If you do, don't hesitate and drop a comment.
If you by any means would like to contact me through other social networks feel free to take a look at:
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Thank you for the fav! ;P
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oh, I almost forgot; HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
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AgentC-24 Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday, Dave! :highfive: Hope you had a great one, pal. :D
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Happy Birthday! :la: :iconcakeplz:
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Policebabe539 Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2012  Student Writer
i want you to know that you are amazing & you're my friend until my death. If I don't get this back, I understand. But, I have a game for you, once you read this letter, you must send it to 15 people, including the person that sent it to you . If you receive at least 3 back, you are loved. Nobody knows how important something is until...................they lose it. Tonight, right at 12:00a.m., the person you like is going to realize that they love you! Then, something is going to happen to you between 1:00 & 2:00a.m. Be ready for the greatest shock of your life. If you break this chain, you, you are going to have bad luck with love for a whole year. Send this to 15 people and see what happens ♥♥♥
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andressoliz Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2012  Professional Traditional Artist
Hey Little Big Dave, thanks for the add.....KISS rule!
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MissBMuffin Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you for adding Optimus Prime to your favourites :)
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Merry Christmas!
Joyeux Noel!
Frohe Weihnachten!
Feliz Navidad!
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Thank you for the points! Much appreciated
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